May 2012
1 post
him.
its been a very long time since i’ve felt this way.
it has always been so certain and so confident,
i had always been so sure of it all.
sometimes i wonder if i had made him act this way, had i been too selfish and had taken his sweet notions for granted?
i guess i can never know. all i know is i love him and he loves me, but has it lessen or increased over the last 2 awesome years.
i...
January 2012
3 posts
words
so when people are in love, they say things like
“i’ve always loved you, i will always love you”
“you’re the best thing in the world”
“you’ll always be my baby”
“you’re the one”
but what happens to those promises when one relationship ends?
where do they go…
i guess they belong to a memory of that moment in the...
stub
i guess…some people are too damn stubborn in life to apologize.
maybe i should stop letting people step on.
maybe, its me.
but. fuck that. lifes too good.
i miss
i miss things.
i miss being young.
i miss him.
December 2011
3 posts
dadadadummm.
:) i love the way you miss me, love me.
i love the way you call me, text me.
best of all,
i love that i know i can always trust you, fall on you.
*
contentment, is basically what i am trying to say.
2011 coming to an end.
2011 holiday’s been great :)
except that bebs had to go back to bru for work experience, which is a great stepping stone for his career. but …. yeah.
been catching up with some friends from the past, meeting more in the days to come.
can’t wait to be home next sunday. this is would be such a great break back home, time for family and old friends.
i miss the days when we were...
November 2011
3 posts
i am really feeling like shit.
PERIOD JUST COME ALREADY. stop mind fucking my body and my feelings.
tired but happy.
ecstatic. going to london to see the best friends!!! :) thankoooo daddyy :)
of course, going back to a place i love to call home first :)
kuala lumpurrrrrrr! in less than a month’s time i would be home and enjoying every bit of it!
been working shit loads now trying to save up as much as possible so i can splurge while i am there :)
October 2011
1 post
damon
men like damon salvatore don’t exist.
they just don’t.
August 2011
4 posts
cold shoulder
i hate this coldness towards me, his back facing my face, doing our own thing.
in our own world, even though we’re in the same room.
sigh.
i hate period cramps.
i don’t need to lose it, to realise what i’ve got.
i know what i got and i know what i need.
*
so does this mean i’d never have to get hurt?
July 2011
4 posts
hmmmm.
will try to drink a cuppa hot tea every morning, apparently it helps with “waking up the body” and obviously i need that.
EARN MONEY :( im feeling poor.
For every Reblog 1$ will be donated to my autistic...
bethefreak:
message me your name to go on the form :)
June 2011
1 post
happy.
:) hi all love ones.
i am satisfied with all that i have.
thankful for everyday.
extremely lucky chubby asian girl.
April 2011
2 posts
hi all.
i have OFFICIALLY relocated to tumblr from blogspot.
and im going to make sure not many will know about this.
but even so, i’ve learnt that the internet could be evil, could NOT be evil if you use it well.
thanks to a certain satan in disguise who calls herself a devoted christian :)
opps? you have no idea who im talking about huh!
THATS RIGHT. im talking about….teehee!
depressed.
i love my family, yes i do.
i love my dad, for all those years he has worked so hard out there and taken in so much stress and worries. i love him for always treating me like a princess since i was just a baby.
i love my mum for always trying to keep the whole family together, always trying to makes us stay in peace, like a happy family.
BUT LIFE DOES NOT ALWAYS GO THAT WAY.
i’m sorry,...
October 2010
1 post
hopes.
i know something i say silly thing,
do silly things and act silly.
but i never meant to hurt you, upset you or use you in anyway,
and i really hope you know that….
being a girl - i always change my mind about thing, and you are the one
ending up with my consequences, and i hate that,
i hate that you have to deal with all my bullshit - sometimes i feel like i am a prick and the one who...
September 2010
3 posts
see.
we see make ups and break ups everywhere,
tears and laughter,
getting together and being separated.
*
for i am glad that we are together and see the world as one.
loved up.
I have always wanted a loving and caring boyfriend,
someone who i can rely on and someone who will love me unconditionally,
someone who puts me as his priority,
puts me first before he does anything, and everything.
it may be selfish of me to hope for such a fairy tale in this harsh and cruel world,
but a girl can dream.
if you don’t dream, you may never get what you want.
and in my...
June 2010
1 post
I LOVE HIM
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND.
and HOW STRONG?
ITS INDESCRIBABLE. more than my heart can hold,
i feel like it’s gonna explode anytime soon.
:)
and the best part is?
he feels the same!
May 2010
1 post
i said, he said.
a few days ago,
i again interrogated you about your past’s shes.
the 2 shes whom i grew interest in because,
i have come to realise i am quite “calculative”
in the sense that i match stories,
bits and pieces which you tell me now and then,
and everytime you tell me, the puzzle gets a few new pieces.
it’s really kind of fun in a twisted mindgame kind of way.
and you...
March 2010
1 post
thankyou.
the mushier things i’ve decided to blog about here, as i am sure my friends would probably die and puke out last night’s leftover.
and regina can endure all the torture herself if she chooses to read it :) AHHA.
***************
thanks for being there for me,
you are my baby boy too :) and it makes me happy to hear you say things like,
“it makes me happy that you want me to...
February 2010
6 posts
feeling better.\\
it makes me smile that you care.
i don’t want to replace your friends and make this into an equation of -
Me>Friends.
i just want a good balance of both for you because i know what and how it feels to have to choose.
i made a promise that i wouldn’t choose boys over friends.
and so, i wouldn’t expect you to do the same.
i miss you even though we are so close and i just...
hope,faith,trust.
I hope that you’d turn out what I want you to.
I have faith that you won’t break me.
I trust that you would make me smile.
“we have so many mask to wear everyday that in the end, we forget which one is...”
– somewhere.
lost soul.
i know that it is not your fault that you can’t come find me now,
when i am so distressed.
i never told you to come, i never asked because i am not going to repeat my mistakes.
i am a strong girl, proud at times, because I don’t want to be looked at as the desperate girl who needs you.
because i don’t need you, i want you.
it has not come to that stage yet.
should i stop...
like.likes. love?
i wish time would just stay still when i am with you,
but i know that’s not possible, no one could freeze time.
every time we bid goodnight, it feels so empty…i feel like a part of me is leaving me.
but then i guess there’s always good byes. no matter how unwillingly i am.
i hate it that your friends despise me.
i hate it that we have to act like strangers when we are in a...
missed
ever missed someone so much that it hurts?
ever missed someone so much that you thought about them everyday?
ever missed someone so much that all you can do is check your phone 24/7?
ever missed someone so much that you reply that person within 2 minutes?
i have.
December 2009
15 posts
you said
“would you believe me if i told u i would much rather have you here with me for christmas eve?”
<3
those were the exact same words you said to me.
25/12/2009
- i dont think i will forget this for a while.
it’s almost been a month and a half since we’ve been apart…and it’s still going fine :)
imissyou.
having you by my side is like having hot showers in the winter.
he called.
it always excites me when i receive an “Unknown Number” caller,
because there’s a chance it could be him,
especially during the nights….
but many times,
it could be my friends in america, or my friends who likes to be mysterious.
today…after 8 days of silence and being strangers…
he called because he got back from his holiday with his friends who hates...
