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hopes.

i know something i say silly thing,

do silly things and act silly.

but i never meant to hurt you, upset you or use you in anyway,

and i really hope you know that….

being a girl - i always change my mind about thing, and you are the one

ending up with my consequences, and i hate that,

i hate that you have to deal with all my bullshit - sometimes i feel like i am a prick and the one who makes your very simple life so complicated,

i hate it. and i hope i will become simpler and simpler as days go by and i hope that we’ll be normal and happy just like how we plan to be.

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i know we are happy and normal now…of course…but…sometimes i just feel like everything spins out of control and i lose my consciousness  just for that one second.

and right now, here i am, you are probably so tired of me - making you get out of bed and all today after you were stressed out for 30hours before today….

somewhat - i would hate that you would somehow stop caring and stop worrying about me.

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you know how girls are so ridiculously weird that when you let her do things her way and let her take the train at night and cold - she’d think you stop caring,

but thats what she wanted and yet, she goes go haywire and thinks of such silly things.

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i never once , NOT ONCE thought you were too controlling or too protective or any thing even close. 

when you stop me in my tracks from doing something - i feel so blessed that you care so much about me and always being there for me,

when you scold me and get angry - thats because i know that you care so much and it would hurt you if anything bad happens, accidents do happen very often.

when you call me a penguin and not let me cross the road to buy food for you - i love it when you do that, i feel like a child again and knowing a man loves you as much as your father does; you’ll know that hes the one for you. 

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i never, never, ever once doubt you or lose a tiny spark of feelings for you,

because i know, I KNOW you are the one for me.

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sorry if i ever make you worry,

it’s so selfish of me to tell you to keep worrying about me…but i know that when one day you do stop, you would have stopped loving me too.